Thoughtful Thursday

You know what I realised?  More often than not, my blogs are always on a Thursday. 

Curious, that. :)

Anyway, A few things today:

If I was mega ultra super sonic rich, I'd TOTALLY own this.  (thank you Andy for making me drool.

I have been trying to grow my hair for ages now, but since Manila is so SO hot (and HUMID..gaaaaaah!) this summer season, my long hair days may be cut short....no pun intended.  I added TWO new blogs to my list today and one of them, had THIS picture:

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I absobloominglutely love this hue of green....

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And the shades of camel.....I want my wedding to look like THIS color scheme. I can't believe I typed that but there you go. :)  I love sage and camel as colors!

And it is my nephew's and kitty's birthdays today!  Two of my favorite boys :D  Having dinner with Alfy later so I'm trying not to eat coz the food will be YUMMEH.

Today also, I've put in place a plan B.  I can't really say what it is for yet, but that I've put it in motion.  And I've also realised I don't like being in limbo.  Limbo as a planet sucks.  Nothing is real, everything is grey; nothing tangible, all fog.  I like knowing where I am or where I'm going...at least the general direction thereof.

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That's not too much to ask for is it?  :)

I have my first gig back with my old band the Dorques tomorrow.  I think the butterflies are only starting to gather NOW, as the matter sinks in.  We are going to play a 45min set tomorrow, and though that may sound like a short time, you have to know that our songs are on average, 3mins.  Our entire album is just ABOUT 45mins, hahahaha! 

(L-R Knell - Bass; Joffy - vox, guitar; Nina - vox, keyboards; me - vox * DRRRRRRRUMS)

It'll be nice playing with them again.  There's a connexion that we have that I can't explain and even if we don't get along sometimes, and get on each other's nerves, it cannot be denied that when we make music together, it is so bloody EASY.  A beat, a riff, a chord.....and off we go.  I guess we're so in tune with each other that it's second nature to do what we do.  I like that. 

My friend's interactive art exhibit is going down on Saturday, and an old friend of mine and I will meet up then.  It should be an interesting night. :)  I"ll write more about both these events after the fact.  

Anyway, it's a full weekend ahead and I'm trying to brace myself for the fun! :)

stressed out with bad thoughts

Well now that I write it, I'm not that stressed out....

I'm full of annoyance though.  Bushels and bushels full of it.  Annoyance at someone, who is well, WAS very close to me.  I don't want to talk to him anymore.  He is awful and I hope that after he said all that stuff about me, that he will show his true colors and that the friends of MINE that he is trying to convince about how good he is, will see right through it, and that they don't go down with him. 

I am ashamed of myself that I feel this way.  I'm ashamed I'm letting myself get this far with feeling such bad vibes.  Only good juju is what I want!!!  But then, I am only human and I do need to purge the badness to leave room for the good stuff to come on in. 

I can feel it.  It's slowly creeping up on in there.  The Zen-ness of everything is battling the darkness in my head.  It will prevail.  I can feel it! :)  Now to keep on keepin' on. :)

I suppose I should start thinking of taking my friend up on her offer for a weekend at the beach.  I think I need it before starting a new job. Yeah, I should.

Beach beach beach. :)