Christmas

I'm not one to get into any kind of Christmas spirit, not for a long while now.  Maybe it's because I don't have kids in my life, and therefore the magic is gone.  The traffic, commercialism, stress that comes with it all, all the annoying stuff about the holidays come to mind before the meaning of the holiday itself. 

And this from a girl who didn't find out Santa wasn't real until she was 12 (nearing 13) years old, and had "The Polar Express" as her favorite childhood book. 

Now all I can say is BAH HUMBUG.  BAH BAH BAH, HUMBUG HUMBUG HUMBUG.

I like this holiday for the vacation it gives, which sadly never lasts very long. 

Then again, after this year, I'm partly welcoming it, seeing as this will mean the year is almost up and the new one can begin.  Now THAT I'm excited for.

To not be TOO much of a Scrooge, I've decided to put something inexpensive up as Christmas decor to help the good juju flow along through my windows and doors.  It will be made by thumbtacks and white paper.  I'm sorry to the blog that posted this picture, I've forgotten where I got it.  If the owner of this picture will eve find me, please let me know and I will make the proper footnote. :)  Thank you.

(UPDATE! It's from HERE...whew!)

Now, THIS is pretty and simple:

Isn't it lovely?  Simple and yet....it'll do for my door outside I reckon.  Since I miss the cold (and yes, even the snow...it's terribly hot here), I decided this would be a cute little thing I can add to my outside door without looking all Christmas-ed out.  It will still look pretty. :)

Anyway, I will look for and buy some thumbtacks and white paper tomorrow.

PS.  I've noticed that this is the 96th entry.  4 more and I will monetize and publicize this blog.  Let's see how that will work out.  Fingers crossed.

Nasty JUJU

Finally found a song that can convey how the state of my mind for the last few weeks has been.  Actually, my state of mind the entire year.  One tragedy after the other. 

I'm holding on. 

It's about that time to sing along. 

Long time entry....THANKSGIVING

It feels like it's been such a long time since I posted last.  I will try and do this justice by bullet points.  The short version of the story is that these last 2-3 weeks have been absolutely crap.  Let me emphasize that: ABSOLUTELY FULL OF CRAP.

Let me begin:

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  I went to the beach and got a really REALLY bad allergic reaction to food, which sent me straight to the doctor on literally, another island.  Got back to Manila had to have checkups and I was on meds.
  
  

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  A week later, drama ensued when C was nowhere to be found.  This part is his story, but I will say that those were the worst, and I mean WORST 12 hours of my life.  Not knowing where someone is, is NOT BLOODY COOL.
  
  

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  On top of all these anxiety attacks, plus those that come when the bills and rent statements come in, I had to bring myself to the ER twice in a span of 8 hours last Friday.  A rash last week kept spreading and though they kept shooting me up with steroids, it came back later on that night...which led to me being admitted into the hospital (by the insistence of C and the docs) for the weekend.  All glorious fun.  I'm now on hospital grade meds til next week.  They will have to test me next week as to what I'm allergic to since they couldn't do it this weekend.  The reason is that if they had added more allergens (?) into my system, however small, it could just send me into a coma style allergic reaction because I was hypersensitive already.  To add onto that, they found a slight infection from the urinalysis. 
  
  

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*SIGH*

Thanksgiving is today.  I'm going to say that I'm thankful for still being alive despite all this; being able to maintain relationships with my family and friends where they still love me, and for the music.  ALWAYS the music.  If not for the music, I would be clawing at walls now.   To list some of the other things I'm thankful for:

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  I'm thankful for my kitties who keep me company even though I know they only see me as a food dispenser / bed / tummy scratcher.
  
  

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  For "Mad Men" and "West Wing" for being intelligent escapes.
  
  

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  For the internet that endlessly keeps me entertained with fluff.
  
  

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  Aromatherapy for making my nose happy.
  
  

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  Medicines that keep whatever is wrong with me at bay.
  
  

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  My new job which I hope will start paying soon.
  
  

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  Canned goods and microwave jalapeno popcorn.
  
  

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  C for letting me in.

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  Water - which I will now treat as my siamese twin.
  
  

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  Cigarettes - my ugliest and filthiest habit, and favorite (and only) vice.  You suck, cigarettes, but I love you, all at the same time.
  
  

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  The holiday season, which is letting me know that slowly, but surely, this horrible year is coming to an end.
  
  

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  Thankful for thanksgiving today to mark the long weekend ahead.
  
  

Hope you all have a good Thanksgiving, whomever is reading this.  :)

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