Thankful Thursday

See, I wrote out a long long blog counting the many MANY reasons why I was thankful for today so as to keep away from being grumpy.  Thanks to the fluctuating of power in this crummy job of mine, it erased the whole blasted thing. 

So now, I'm not so thankful, though I have a lot to be thankful for.  I will instead go to a movie with friends tonight and try and cheer myself up with that thought.

PEACE AND LOVE MAN.  Oh and the event tomorrow. :)

There.  That wasn't so bad. 

*gasp*

OH MY OH MY!

One of my favorite blogs, coco + kelley posted this:

http://cocokelley.blogspot.com/2009/09/swedish-love-in-blackwhite.html

MY WORD.  It is pretty.  And it is giving me ideas. 

plot plot plot

This seems like a good idea too, just need to buy the tools.

http://www.apartmenttherapy.com/ny/how-to/how-to-make-your-own-glasses-from-bottles-094915

Chanel

I'm really not into designer stuff, though I do wish sometimes I have money to throw around to buy them.

Today is one of those days.  That is because I stumbled upon THIS:

http://www.temptalia.com/chanel-noirs-obscurs-collection

OH WOW.  I want the nail polish and lipsticks.  *drool*

It seems that whenever I want cosmetics, which is RARE in itself, I end up wanting somethinf from Chanel.  The other 'dream' gift I want from Chanel would be a bottle of No. 5. 

(image from: http://www.mimifroufrou.com/scentedsalamander/images/Chanelno5-Ad-1921-Sem.jpg)

Isn't it pretty?   Just looking at the picture makes me want one :)

Wasted Wednesday

Today, sadly, I'm a grumpy bug and feel like the world is conspiring against me.  I also know it's mercury retrograde, and whether or not I want to believe it, everything for me right now is NOT quite working out.  The job, the rakets, the little projects on the side, even the band have all these little problems. 

And I don't want to go into it because it'll just get me even more depressed than I already am. 

Ok, DEPRESSED is a bit dramatic, disappointed and despondent.  Depressed is something I need to take pills for.  This I know I will get over, but a little wallowing today will help me get over it.  Well, that's how I know MYSELF, I'm not sure if other people do that.

So this blog today is all about feeling helpless about everything that I wish would work out already.  It's not that I haven't TRIED, I have, it's all this WAITING and hoping and since the waiting is so long, you get hopeless.  If there was another way to get myself out of this situation I'm in, my friends will probably be much more grateful for the change of mood.  I know I would be.  I don't like feeling this way.  It all ends up with me feeling my most hated feeling in the world, which is HELPLESS.  I don't like feeling helpless, out of control.  I like knowing where I am, where I'm going and what I need to do to get there.  I know life throws curveballs everywhere all the time, and I'm probably not the only one going nuts, but I've been in this sort of LIMBO for so long, or longer than I would like, that I just want to get out of it already. 

I should just plot.  Plot my way out of here.  I just need to come up with a sustainable plan and I will do it.  BY GOD I WILL!

*bow*

Thrilling Tuesday

Well, technically it ISN'T, though the idea of me staying in with West Wing IS thrilling.  By all accounts, no one else in their right mind would find this as thrilling as I do.  But maybe I assume too much.  Maybe I have kindred spirits out there shouting, "WHY YES!  Let's stay home!!  THAT IS THE BEST THING EVER!"

To you, I say, HOME IS THE SHIZZNIT! :D 

Don't get me wrong.  I love going out, seeing friends, doing things.  But wow, there are times that my entire being just yearns to hang out at home with the kittykids.  Maybe even with a book, God knows I have enough on the "to read" list.  This is one of those times.  I miss my home, just staying in and trying to figure out how best to proceed with my plot on world domination :)

PLOTPLOTPLOT.

Now to play some Plants vs. Zombies.  or buy food and then play.  Yeah, that's it. 

Such a trying day it is today eh? :)

LUDOS INK! LUDOS INK!! LUDOS INK!!!!!

This is the week! And with fingers crossed I hope they come in droves!

Imagine and Chris Cornell

Brilliant

steady Sunday

Just chilling at home, and finishing my delivered fries from Mcdonald's.  Musing about life and where it has gotten me.  Seeing my new beautiful tattoo and knowing the pain was worth it. :)

I stayed in last night, which I haven't done in a while and just watched West Wing.  Felt awesome!  And wow do I love that show now more than ever before.  I've never really gotten the nuances and small "in" jokes they had since I'd watch it sporadically and only when it was on.  Thank the heavens my friend has the complete series and was kind enough to lend it to me.  :)

But I'm so happy that I got my tattoo.  This is the tattoo I've been wanting for what, 7 years now?  I thought about it during the darker part of my life, when I was going nowhere fast and when I simultaneously realised that I wasn't that I wasn't the center of ANY universe.  That was also the time I found myself, what I wanted, where I wanted to go and most importantly WHAT I WANTED TO BE.  So this tattoo means more to me than the others, just because it is not because of anyone else, FOR anyone else, but it was my own realisation that life, MY LIFE, will not be anyone else's.  It's crazy to think that 7 years ago, which seems like a whole entire lifetime ago now, something that I thought, still applies today. 

It says "OMNES MET DAEMONES VIRES AMISERINT" in Latin. I took it from lyrics of a song of Fat Boy Slim and Macy Gray, and it says, "ALL OF MY DEMONS WILL WITHER AWAY".  The reason why I wanted the placement on my right foot is because my demons will always be my weakness, just as Achilles had his heel (which by most accounts was his right one).  Also because of the placement, my demons are my weakness, but something I also figuratively step on, and therefore can get over and overcome.  Thus, the tattoo.  S is a really good tattoo artist and I'm so happy she did this for me.  She even did it so it looked Elven!  The geek in me reigns supreme :)

Anyway, I'm going to go back to being horizontal for a while.  I like Sundays :)